Sitting here, in my undies, and it is 4 pm...

That's right...It's true. I am indeed in my undies at 4 pm...Lame...I know. I went to the YMCA and worked out, like I do almost every day...but today was different. I ran into my first real love on friday. My brother and his band were a headline band at the Mayfly festival, in Dundee, Mi., and I went to support them. While I was there...I met him again. The him in this scenario was my first best friend. Although Charlie is my best friend, and really, the best friend any guy could ask for and I love him to death, but I did not meet Charlie until the 11th grade, in Mr. Matusik's poli sci class. In all, it was the best thing life could have given me. I needed Charlie like macaroni needs cheese. In all seriousness, Charlie, Vanessa, and Anissa were the real reasons why I survived high school. Here's the story...

In 6th grade, I entered middle school. I met a boy and a girl, who would then be my best friends for four years. We were all in each other's classes and we bonded to a high level. You could say, we were "the best of friends." Well, after two years of this relationship, I began to feel stronger feelings than a best friend should. Yes, I became "that guy." I started doing things that went well over the call of duty. But alas, I was young and in love. Later, this feeling towards him led to me being sly...lol Charlie and Stephen...Well, when it came time to spill the beans, he abandoned me. I already knew that was most likely the outcome, but I had to try. We ceased being friends because he could not have a gay best friend. Alas...this hurt to the extreme. I still have not completely healed, and images of the past still haunt my unconsciousness. So to Charlie- sometimes dreams can be a bitch.

Anyways, I finally moved on, went to college, etc etc and forgotten him. Well, not completely, but to a point where it no longer hurt. But, at the festival, I ran into him. Seven years of memories, of pain, of emotion inflamed me. Consumed me. All it took was just one look and an exchange of words. Of course I showed him how better off I am, etc etc etc, you know, how women have to look better, etc etc when they see an ex, well that's how I was. And so was he. But afterwards, dark images hunted my consciousness, and my wall I had built, crumbled. It is usually troublesome how life throws a curve-ball.

I believe love has two sides, almost like Two-Face...or Tom Jones, lol, one full of light, peace, and happiness, the other, the opposite. Sigh, do not worry, I will be alright. :)

-Toph

One week to go...

So, readers. I only have one week left of school!!! Although, I have three papers, two math tests, and a physical exam, but who's counting!!!! Ugh, cannot WAIT 'til it's over with. This is my last week of Tae Kwon Do until the 26th, when I continue the class. Soon Stephen G and I can battle one another!! Speaking of Stephen G., he finally got a blog, too. He needs an outlet for his crazy mind, so I'm glad he got one.

Fear not, Charlie is safe and healthy. He is enjoying his internship and the weather. Kelsey, his girlfriend, is off to Oklahoma for some "church" thing. We had a good laugh at that, being that Charlie and I are atheists. I had to go to work at seven a.m. today because of floor-set. That was fun. My co-workers and I sang and danced while folding clothes and moving fixtures.

I read Equus the other day, and let me tell you. That is some fucked up shit. I mean, I knew it was going to be, but...wow. And may I just say, Ben Estep, you fail at life and I don't know why you exist. God...Every time I hear his voice, I either want to cut my wrists, or his. Even my professor has said something to him. God...

And now, I'm watching Liar Liar and doing crunches. Workin on my six-pack. :)
Well, love you all and I hope you're all doing well!!

-Topher

Wow...

Sorry readers, for taking so long to post a new blog. I have been busy, busy, BUSY! Spring semester started and it has just been so hectic. English is wonderful, amazing, stellar! but math is not my forte. Also, Charlie, my best friend EVER! left for his internship in Washington on Monday, so Ive been hanging out with him as much as possible. And I would just like to state that Indian Jones the fourth movie, sucked. The plot was just ridiculous. And I guess the Red Wings won the Stanley cup...awesome...Stephen C. and I are no longer a couple because we are both just too busy, etc etc etc. And I guess the only other thing I need to report is that today, in Tae Kwon Do, I got a roundhouse kick right to my chest, causing me to almost pass out. It was one of life's lessons I needed to learn...don't spar your teacher...Well, now I am just resting here, and checking my mail. I hope you are well! Night!

-Toph